like i wanna die but also don't wanna go

im so sorry for being so complicated after all this time
and thankyou for understand me
if there's someone who already divide ur heart for me,
i told you that she deserves you more than me
i was just too bad for everyone.
glad and thanks God that i can breathe
anxiety kills me more than my own pain
thankyou for reading this shit
dont forget to remind me that i deserve to be happy ( if you mind )
and if you want to pull me up from this continuously pathetic feeling, i'll let you in
but if you get bored of me and myself and also this stupid soul, just go away from me and thats okay
i understand
that
i dont deserve anything
than this sad feeling
and maybe pain killer will kill me slowly hehe