aku sepi

aku sendiri

sampai aku biasa nanti

sampai aku tak tahu apa namanya rasa sakit

D+2 without Instagram

Hari hari tanpa instagram tak semelelahkan hari hari dengan akun pribadi.
Semua baik baik saja hingga saat ini. Semua lebih menyenangkan. Aku lebih berani sendiri. Hari ini aku makan sendiri, dan hanyaa sekali. Semoga kedepannya lebih baik lagi.
Kadang kita terlalu fokus untuk mengamati orang, hingga lupa mengamati diri kita sendiri.

one thing that i know is;
                there's no way out.
i'm over sensitive and i hate it.
stuck into the dark place called life.
i just don't wanna meet ppl,not anymore.
i slept for 12 hours today
reality sucks
my dreams is happier than my life
i was so tired bruh.

advice

i think i need to go to physicology.
yea just go then.

you always answer all of my questions with yes. just yes? that's all?
so what am i supposed to do??
idk hhhhh

life is gettin complicated when u start to love someone more than u love urself
when u start to give a hope to someone more than urself
life is full of tears when there's noone beside u continuously while everyone is just passing out into ur life differently.

friends, crush, ex, they all dead. my mom is to busy to care bout myself.
i used to be care on myself but i cant hold on my tears everytime i try to give some advice to myself.
i hug my doll everytime i need a  hug.
my friends leave me when we used to be a teamate.
i can't find anywhere which belongs to myself.
i love someone but he didn't care on me , not at all.
he stalks some girl which maybe just more important than myself when all i do is just mute my friends snapgram bcs i was to sad to see their happy story.
my boarding friends never ever wanna talk to me and i dont even know why.
i got no friends, not here, not everywhere.

everyone care on their selves but not me.
maybe i just can't see the brighter life, not anymore.

it hurts
it hurts
it hurts.
im just gonna cry over myself til the night became the noon and the morning became the night.

so i think, it's better to be alone and having hope to noone than have some hopes to someone when actually noone give a fuck on u.

with sad and regret.
TT

when u r crying in the middle of the night, noones help, who's name will you shouted out ?

When there's noone who wants you anymore, where will you go?

makin kesini makin sering sedih.
kenapa ya.

cat

cat
cat
  cat
i wanna have a cat
so i dont need to feel this loneliness and also i'll have something to talk to, or maybe someone.

ps: cat could be ur friend when no more human could.

it's just a bad life;

gak keterima kkn
berada diantara 2 lingkaran pertemanan
tidak cocok di 2 lingkaran dengan cara yang berbeda
ditinggalin
dilupain
and so many little things that makes me cry

hold on?
like how ?
teach me
i cant learn.
i'm so sorry.

F.R.I.E.N.D

i got friends
not too much
but i feel strange sometimes

when i have them, i feel like i haven't
and when i'm not having them, i feel like i have
sounds strange like ?

but.
i just wanna make sure.
have u ever feel lonely sometimes?

yeah, we're alone in this world.
maybe if our parents are not our parents, they're not gonna love us as much as now
rite????