yay!

i can hear myself scream out my old name but hey, who's need an old soul when you find the new one, the beautiful one ?

Everything just get complicated when I'm happy.
Just like,
i didn't deserve a chance to be happy bout something.
But when I get sad, or mad.
Noone give a shit.
Yea thankyou life.

you know that your heart is purely empty when you hear a romantic song at 02:05 am and you don't even think bout someone at all.

Life is about "come and go",
what's new? or maybe what's next?
and it's all about them who come just when they need something,
and it's all about them who go away when they are done.

Kamu yakin mau pacaran sebelum lulus S1?

Loh memangnya kenapa mas ?

Kamu ya, harus siap mental.

Siap mental untuk apa ?

Kamu pacaran, itu kamu harus siap mental. Waktumu bakal habis, pikiran kamu bakal terkuras, bahkan bisa buat ga fokus sama sesuatu. Kamu udah siap?

Hehehe. Bener juga sih. *diem*  *sadar*

..... maaf.

aku suruh Tuhan
sampaikan maafku
untukmu
sebesar besarnya
sedalam dalamnya.
karna aku tak ingin lagi membuka cerita,
namun kamu terus terngiang ngiang dalam benak.
jadi,
maafkanlah semua
mungkin Dia punya cara yang sepantasnya
untuk menebus segala dosa kita.

6/10/2017

Little does she know

..... that her heart was gone.

she just wondering how could she feels so empty?
then she knows why.
he took everything and never give it back to her.
she just miss someone yet she doesnt even know who he is.

may her physical touched by someone
but she always knows with whom her heart belongs
or maybe she always knows who took everything from her before.

and now she just turns into a mannequin which can laugh but didn't feel anything
even the butterflies just stop flying through her stomach
and her cardiac never beat as fast as 6 months ago; when everything seems so fine.

little does she know that everything has changed
including her
and she just lost something.
her own heart as his lovely girl.

02/10/17